My First Christmas
This year is my first Christmas for many reasons. I wanted to share them with you because some of it is good and some of it is bad.
This is my first Christmas as a grandmother to Mia Claire.
I haven’t enjoyed the holidays since starting my divorce in 2004. The girls were always pulled in two directions and they have rarely been there to open presents on Christmas morning with me.
That took the fun out of it for many reasons. Now that Mia has arrived I expect Christmas to be fun again. I can’t wait to see the excitement and wonder in her eyes in the coming years.
This is my first Christmas as a 40-year-old woman.
This may not mean much to most of you but it means so much to me. I don’t feel like I am a 40-year-old Mimi. I like to listen to top 40 music and am still not sure why I like rap music so much. I am also trying to find my style as a 40-year-old. What the heck is a 40-year-old supposed to wear? My daughters, (21 and 14), tell me that I try to dress too young. Well what should I be wearing? I usually wear jeans and t-shirts to work, although I do wear the occasional maxi skirt and nice blouse. Anyway, I still have so much to figure out in this next part of my life.
This is my first Christmas where my weight is at an all time high.
I won’t give you that disgusting number but it is not pretty. I had a goal in my 38th year to be FIT BY 40. That came and went without any results. Some days I feel freaking awesome and most days I feel blah and yucky. My weight is finally effecting other parts of my life and I don’t like it. I am usually a pretty confident woman even with my curves but it has gotten to be too much for me now. I refuse to buy LARGER clothes than what I have so I need to make what I have work. I will ONLY buy smaller clothes. I refuse to make a new year resolution but I can make a commitment to myself to be healthier. I know that this will be a complete lifestyle change but I am up for the challenge.
This is my first Christmas as a sole business owner.
I took a 1 hour course and got four weeks of mentoring from an amazing woman named Sadie Lankford of Slap Dash Mom. I continue to learn new things everyday with Sadie. She is a business genius and I know that I can succeed while she is my mentor. Sadie is always encouraging me to do more or the next thing or to think long-term. She is always positive and her smile is infectious. I need more people like her in my life.
Thank you to those that have stuck with me this past year and those that will stick with me into 2015. I appreciate your support.
What are you looking forward to this Christmas?